so about 3 weeks ago we found out that Kati was pregnant. what a happy time. we had the misfortune of a miscarriage in January and didnt know when we would be able to get pregnant again. we were thrilled at the prospect of being parents. we both want to be parents more than anything in the world. i can not wait to see kati with our kids. she is going to be such a great mom. this time we were a little more cautious in the amount of people we told. kati was much more ill this time around than in january and so we thought that was a good sign that we would get to keep the baby. so we set up an appointment to meet with our doctor this past monday. we get there and he does a brief exam of kati and says that everything looks to be right on track. he used a radio thing to try and hear the heart beat but couldnt find it. he said that we were still really early and that it was normal not to hear it. before the appointment both kati and i agreed that we would ask for an ultrasound if the doctor did not offer to do one. doctor dinger left to get some last minute paper work and when he returned he offered to do the ultrasound for our peace of mind. we were scheduled to get it done at 140 and so we went to lunch and ran a couple errands before the ultrasound. we arrive at the clinic and we go back to the exam room, and the ultrasound technician begins to do the ultrasound. she is very quiet and doesnt say anything through the whole thing. she took a lot of pictures and probed and prodded kati. we knew then that something was wrong. why didnt she tell us to look at our baby? why didnt she show us the heartbeat? after waiting for a few minutes she told us that we needed to go back to doctor dingers office to talk about the ultrasound. when we arrived back at his office he took us to the back and confirmed our fears. the pregnancy was tubal, meaning that the fertilized egg had implanted in katis fallopian tube instead of her uterus. doctor dinger was very kind about it and said that it wasnt fair, but he was straight forward in telling us that the pregnancy had to be removed. the surgery was scheduled for tuesday afternoon at 1 pm. we left devastated wondering why. this would be two pregnancies in less than 6 months that we have lost. we came home and cried and tried to console each other. we at dinner with the family and played some card games to try and take our mind off of the fact that tomorrow we were going to lose our baby. at about 1115 we came downstairs to get ready for bed and kati got up to use the restroom and suddenly could not move due to the pain she felt. she called me over to hold her and try and comfort her. upon looking at her closely i knew that something was really wrong. she had a green tint to her skin and she was very pale. i helped her to the bed and ran upstairs to get kent to give her a blessing. when we returned downstairs kati was not very lucid. she was staring around the room and was very clammy to the touch. we gave her a blessing and as soon as it was over kati passed out due to pain. she came to in about 5 seconds or so. we rushed her to alta view hospital. as we arrived there the people working in the ER seemed to not be in any hurry to help her. they were very cold in their approach and did not posses very good people skills. they sent for an ultrasound tech to come do another ultrasound to see what was causing all the pain. if i never meet this woman again, i will be a happy person. she was the most rude, inconsiderate person i have ever met. she kept poking kati trying to see what was wrong, all the while kati was bawling it hurt so bad. at this point the surgeon came in and stopped the ultrasound stating that they needed to take her to surgery right then. so kati was taken to the OR and there had her left fallopian tube, along with our baby, taken out. how devastating. i was so worried for kati and her health. after about an hour doctor tanner came out and said that everything went well and that kati was in the recovery room. every single person that we dealt with outside of the ER was very compassionate and considerate of our feelings. they were kind as could be. after about 35 minutes in recovery kati was ready to go to her room. ironically and unintentionally cruel, her room was in the middle of the maternity ward. how hard that was to walk past all those new born babies and the pictures of the babies on the wall, after losing our second pregnancy of the year. the nurses were so kind to us. each one telling to have hope for the future.

one might ask where the hand of god is all of this. the chain of events that led to this, have the hand of god stamped all over it. from the doctor to suggesting we get an ultrasound, to kent helping me give kati a blessing, to my mom coming to stay the night with us in the hospital, to the kind hearted nurses, to a loving family to the kindness of our ward members. as horrible an experience this has been, there have been so many blessings poured out towards kati and myself. the greatest of all the blessings is katis health. i am so grateful to a loving heavenly father that he has spared her life a little longer and that she will make a full recovery. what a tender mercy.

that saying might be true afterall............the third time might just be the charm!!!!